Longing Along…

Surrounded by people, yet feeling all alone

How lucky I’d have been to be getting all their love,

They cheer for him, they jeer at me,

All because he has the means, I have the needs.

Walking along the beach, the waves lapping at my feet,

The wind whipping through my hair, their jibes roaring through me.

Silence was what I sought; maybe I wasn’t destined for that too.

I was never given a chance, a chance he never even had to ask for.

I proved them wrong; I stood on my feet,

They pulled the carpet from beneath me,

They pulled me down again.

Today I stare out at the sea,

I see the waves coming towards me,

I let them take me down with them,

And there’s finally silence all around me.

Numb, and quiet, I remember God,

And I promise to Him I’ll come out strong.

Bowing to you all!

5000 page views! I still find it hard to believe!

Random Awkwardness!

Ever come across those moments when awkwardness takes over all else?

• Remember those teeny-weeny moments when you are sitting with someone and the chair squeaks and squeals with every movement of yours and you are at a loss at whether to continue speaking, or wait for the chair to stop!

• Often it happens that during the morning rush hours, passengers start shouting the choicest expletives at the bus-driver for driving so slow and when the driver starts driving rashly the same passengers are the first ones to hold on to their seats as if their life was at stake!

• When you suddenly have a hymn or a bhajan or some popular movie track playing aloud in an otherwise quiet room and the source of that sound is a cell-phone! Invariably, the owners of such phones seem to be taking the most time to answer their calls!

• Imagine the scene :

You are engrossed in work.

So is your friend.

Suddenly the friend starts mumbling something and you keep responding only to realize later that the person wasn't even talking to you, just thinking aloud!

Share your awkward moments here! After all we all definitely have some! ;)

P.S. : Priyanka, it's turned out to be good, hasn't it? ;)

P.P.S : Vikash, you might just get a treat after I cross 5000 page views with this post! Yes, I said "might"! :P

P.P.P.S : For all those who don't know who Priyanka and Vikash are — these two are among the crazy lot of friends I have at work! And they both rock!

And yes, there are no more Post-scripts to read! Another awkward moment? Or maybe not?

Oh Nature!

And here comes the second lot of pictures clicked by me on the weekend away! I am in love with them, unabashedly and I hope you fall for them too!

Two to tango!

Wish we had such pictures in our bio books!

Near yet far...

And we all fall down!

Perched atop.

Colour combo!

Like them ..?

Skies in full glory!

A weekend away from the city, friends all around, serene Mother Nature and a camera at hand...
The results are here for you to see!

Reaching out to the horizon.

Doesn't it look like a painting?

The Three Musketeers...

Colours getting hazy!

Playing peek-a-boo!

Liked it?

More to follow soon! :)

Rain, rain, come again!

I was waiting for my Dad to pick me up. It had started drizzling. A heavy bag on back, rumbling stomach, tired after a long day's work, I parked myself under the shade of a nearby well-known hotel's portico.

Knowing that Dad would take time, I started fidgeting with my cell. Taking out my earplugs, I started disentangling them (They always get entangled!). A sudden gush of wind, throwing droplets of water all over me, made me look up! The drizzle had now turned into a downpour. People had flocked around me by then. Some were talking among themselves, some on the phone.

I wish someone had taken my pic! ;)

It dawned on me that the city which had been boiling in the past two weeks was finally getting a wash of relief! To hell with the phone! Shoving it out of my gaze, I stood looking at the small droplets of water being blessed on us by Him. I could feel my lips curving upwards! As if in agreement, lightning jolted in the sky, thunder startled everyone around!

The next few minutes no thought crossed my mind, no messages had to be answered, no calls to attend… Just the wind blowing my hair around, the water splashing on me in and out, the coolness tingling my wet skin, eyes sparkling at every streak of light in the sky, claps of thunder sounding like music!

Just a Calcuttan enjoying the first showers!

And then Dad came. The phone came out and this post was born!

They leave you speechless!

The other day while surfing through the channels, a dance reality show on television, Dance India Dance Li'l Masters caught my eye. (And breath!) Two kids maybe around 10 or 12 years of age were all set to dance. The anchor asked them what dance style they were going to perform? The smaller one among the two promptly replied 'Robotics'! The next question thrown at the boy was which song. For a few seconds he was quiet and then he turned towards his mentor sitting with the rest of the dancers and asked very cutely 'which song was it?!' The studio audience, judges and other participants were all in splits and understandably so! But if anyone wrote off the boy at that moment, it would be wrong. Because when he did perform, he performed so brilliantly, you'd have been rendered speechless! The boy did know what he was doing!

Another incident on the same line happened on Masterchef Junior. A 12 year old girl, Isabella, was preparing tzatziki sauce with her lamb pie. Ok if you're still not shocked a small wake up call - a 12 year old girl was preparing pie which by the way turned out to be good! What was I doing when I was 12? Umm I was in class 6 and was fantasizing myself in Hogwarts and loving the pair of Nancy and Ned! Both of which I still do! *Grinning sheepishly*

Getting back to the point where she was making the sauce. One of the judges came and asked her what she was preparing and the girl told him, self-confessing that she couldn't pronounce tzatziki properly! And my first reaction was 'She can’t pronounce it but she can cook it! Unbelievable!'

All these kids reality shows which have once again resurfaced to the television foray both national and international, revealing the immense talent and vast potential which kids have are loved by one and all. The passion they show towards their work and the dedication which drips from every action is way beyond their years!

The kids today have an amazing platform to display their skills at such an early age and I hope these shows do justice to them.

Good luck and best wishes to all the talented kiddies from an ardent, awed and inspired fan! :)

Pulled down by expectations!

After continued attempts at penning my thoughts on paper, frustrated, irritated and filled with despair, I still don’t know where to start. And until I don’t pour the words out, this clenched feeling in my heart just won't go away.

Not a state you’d like to be in — where you have so much to say, yet you don’t know how to say it!

In plain and simple words, without bothering to embellish or adorn it –

I am disappointed. 

With myself. With others around me.

There, I said it!

Yes, disappointed.

Every time, the delicate lace of expectations that I weave, comes apart, I try and depict the pattern again!

Why?

Why, when people have disappointed me, do I trust them again?

Why do I seek them again when they were the ones who left me alone?

Why do they become a priority in my life, while I still remain an option?

Blame it on the unrestricted and boundless flow of emotions through us humans, I guess!

All seems to go well, and when you least expect it, all goes downhill!

Such is the way of life.

It surprises you when you expect it the least, but need it the most.

I am sorry to have bored you with this note of self pity and I want to thank you for having taken out the time to read this!

It truly means a lot to me!

Just one sincere and heartfelt advice –

Love yourself. More than anyone else in the world. Because you deserve it!

I do! Do you?

Dedicated to those who made me realize along the way that love doesn't always give back love! Thank you for teaching me one of the harsh realities of life...

I do! Do you?

I never meant to hurt you,

I never meant to slight you,

I wish you'd understood me,

I'd never have gone without you.

My love was all I had for you,

My concern was all I showered on you,

Yet you thought I pestered you,

I'd never have done that to you.

If I was tired, I was no fun,

If I was fun, I was trying too much,

You always had a complain about me,

I'd always tried not to do that to you.

I wish you'd loved me,

I wish you'd seen me,

I wish you'd cared for me,

Because that is all I ever did to you.

Forever and ever and ever...

Here 'n' there!

Well, I’ve been meaning to write for sometime but just haven't found the time... And energy... And inclination... And idea...

Well still at a loss on what to write about, (it happens when your mind is filled with Maths formulae, Tax provisions and concepts of Accounting in a bid to finish the exam syllabus ASAP!) here's just a quick recap of things that caught my eye but weren't enough for individual posts!

• The trailer of Love, Lies and Seeta in which the girl says “love is a lie every teenage girl tells herself.” Loved the line!

• Now that my CA final tuitions have begun (at 6.30 in the morning!) I realize that Calcutta does wake up early!

• And the feeling which overwhelms me every time my short stories are appreciated was something I experienced multiple times during the past week! My friends at office deserve special mention and attention in this case! Thank you people!

• But the one news which made me prance about in the air was that the TV show Castle will now feature on Indian television not one but five days a week!

Wrapping up with nothing more to say yet lots left!

See you again in a week!

Till then keep sharing your ‘here n there!’